tOts to ponder..

Passion Manila: A Blazing Night of Praise and Worship

2010-05-26T10:43:00.005+08:00

May 25, 2010
7:30 PM
Passion World Tour 2010 - Manila

We missed Passion WT2008 and so we promised ourselves that we'll get tickets early for the 2010 Tour. True enough, we got our tickets early and was able to watch last night's concert at the Dome.

Having read Passion's blog, I can't help but agree with how Louie Giglio described the event that was last night - words fail. God's presence was truly and deeply felt by everyone, I for one could not contain the overwhelming gladness I have in my heart for being His child, for being there, able to sing and dance and praise and worship Him for all His goodness and greatness and love.

As Peewee and I were discussing, last night made us realize even more that we really belong there, in the crowd of people cheering for God, proclaiming His glory, sincerely feeling so so good to be a Christian, to be a part of HIStory.

Hearts ablaze, hands to God, all for His glory. Shout JESUS' fame!

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God you are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God
- Our God, Passion

Post-anniversary post

2010-04-21T15:57:00.007+08:00

I remember that day when I cried to the Lord and finally surrendered my "love-life" to Him, after not having done so and insisting my way many times. I'm glad I did, because He surely gives the best if we obey.

Kung iisipin ko, talagang amazing kung paano kumilos si God para mabuo ang "love story" namin ni Peewee (aka Pards). May iilang nakakaalam ng history (as in history, tipong musmos pa, childhood crush, ganun) at alam kong kasama namin sila sa pagka-mangha at pagkagalak na rin, lalo na ngayon after having celebrated a year of being together, with God's goodness of course. I remember years back when I received a phone call from Peewee about his grief over a broken relationship. Honestly, nagulat ako at nagtaka that he called me kasi hindi naman talaga kami close, though we belong to the same "circle" of young people. I guess that was the start of an unexpected friendship we didn't even think would turn out to be much more special.

Then came the time when it was my turn to be in the same sorrowful state. I know the Lord used the people around me (you know who you are, thanks for the prayers!) to somehow ease the pain I was going through. At siyempre, isa siya sa mga taong andiyan lang at dumadamay, sabi niya nga, even if I didn't ask him to. Andiyan lang siya at in fairness hindi talaga siya nawala. Naalala ko ang aming long talks (mainly of sharing my stories and thoughts, nag-momoment kasi ako nun) and long walks, primarily to kill time and to distract myself then. Naalala ko nung dumating yung time na we felt something might be going on, but decided that we disregard whatever it might be - deadma lang, delikado kasi, the friendship was too valuable to lose. Naalala ko yung phase na we were praying to God to show us kung siya na ba or ako na ba, or hindi at friends lang talaga. We've had our share of emotional pain na kasi which we are sure to experience again if hindi kami ang plan ni God para sa isa't-isa. And I remember receiving that answer I've been praying for and then finally telling him. Tapos e telling friends na ang sumunod, with matching celebration pa sa Chowking.

Noong una akong ma-involve sa bf-gf relationship, natutunan ko na hindi pala lahat ng gusto mo - as in tipong fairy-tale scenarios, prince-charming-damsel-in-distress set-up, ay magkakatotoo. And I settled with that. Tinanggap ko na nga na ganun talaga, yung mga daydream mo, subset lang nun ang magmamaterialize, and that's fine kasi kaya nga daydream e. Kaya naman sobra kong nagulat na meron palang someone na swak dun sa "fairy-tale love story" I had in mind. Ang galing talaga ni God, alam Niya kung anong gusto ko at magpapasaya sa kin, at ibinigay Niya. All things worked together for good talaga, actually hindi lang for the good kundi for the best.

I am and forever will be grateful to the Lord for that. Ü

Paano nga ba hinaharvest ang munggo?

2010-01-12T15:30:00.002+08:00

During lunch, i overheard my officemates talking about how mungo beans are harvested.

"Di ba root crop yun?"
"Oo, huhukayin mo yung lupa tapos pupulutin mo isa-isa yung mga munggo."

They're joking, of course. But that got me wondering, exactly how do you arrive with the mungo beans? I know you get toge from "pre-mature mungo bean plants" - the bean sprouts. But how do you get to the bean stage?

"Parang sitaw yun tapos andun sa loob yung munggo."

Aaaa, right! Like the pods of peas. Hahaha, stupid me.

More info on Munggo

Project Mojos

2009-12-28T14:01:00.002+08:00

INGREDIENTS:
1 kg potatoes
cooking oil
salt
pepper
Clara Ole dressings (honey mustard, thousand island, ceasar)

STORY:
After experiencing home made mojos by Kuya Jan, Peewee and I decided to do our version whenever we get the chance. And finally during this Holiday break, we had the chance.

First stop - Taytay market. We bought the potatoes and my goodness, I was surprised that potatoes cost P60 to P80 a kilo! round pepper is P5 a pack. Next was SM Supermarket where we bought the salt, cooking oil and the dressings. We picked three different dressings for variety.

After having bought everything we need, we went home to start our cooking project.

Yumyum!

Too tired..

2009-12-15T10:57:00.002+08:00

Been frequenting OB trips lately (no, not the doctor) as part of the catalyst project we're doing at the plant. And just yesterday I realized I haven't really rested, as in the real REST (not dying of course) i have been wishing to do. Thanks to Pards we were able to squeeze in a 2-hr movie-bumming event last Saturday after being from Laguna for an OB trip. Yes an OB trip. On a Saturday.

And since yesterday's OB really drained the energy in my reserve, if there is really any left, I decided to just sleep away this morning. But I still got up earlier than I expected and since I can't get back to sleep anymore, here I am blogging.

Am really looking forward to the next two weeks vacation - I just pray that my boss will allow me to have Mon-Wed off.

welcome (me) back to civilization

2009-11-21T10:04:00.002+08:00

Hooray, hooray!

11/09 - bought the PC
11/11 - bought the monitor
11/14 - applied for DSL
11/19 - got the DSL installed

Been searching for reviews for PLDT, Smart and Globe to help me decide which one to apply for so I can have internet connection at home. Since we already have a PLDT landline, I decided to just stick with PLDT, and great thing I did because service wast fast - had the modem installed 5 days after application! yey!

Now I can update this blog more frequently (I hope, hehe)!

Anawangin Adventure Part 1

2009-04-16T10:18:00.010+08:00

Been wanting to go to some great getaway place with my bf and finally we had the chance, also to celebrate our 3rd monthsary! Yehey!

We tagged along my mom so she can experience "paglalaboy" too.

Woke up around 1:30 in the morning so we can start early and be at balinatawak by around 3. Add to the excitement the fact that this was our first time to travel (malayuan) together, with only theoretical knowledge (thanks to maps and direction form waypoints.ph) on how to go there.

Driving that early sure was a breeze - no cars to wrestle the roads with. The thing that slowed us down was the fact that we weren't familiar with the roads so we had to be extra careful with the road signs so we wouldn't get lost. But we did, ironically, when we were nearing pundaquit, the drop off point to the famed Anawangin Cove.

We arrived at Pundaquit beach around 7 am. Sadly, the rechargeable batteries we brought weren't functioning as they should. so we decided to buy batteries at the last minutes. And since no alkaline batteries were available, we had to settle for the regular ones.

Before heading to Anawangin, we first visited the Capones Island, home of the lighthouse. No, we were not able to go to the lighthouse, we owere only able to take a picture of it from a distance.

On the way to the Cove, we couldn't help being amazed by the wonderful mountains welcoming us. God really is the Great Artist!

(To be continued..)

Ranting

2009-03-09T11:43:00.001+08:00

Yes I will write about my ranting now so that I can let it go. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh! Kaya pala inimbento ang stress ball, para pag gigil na gigil ka na e kesa ano pang destructive act ang gawin mo e ibuhos mo na lang lahat sa kawawang (but super squeeze-absorbent) bolang iyon. Special thanks to Ms. Marion for this gift nung pasko. Ngayon ko lang siya actually nagamit, come to think of it.

What am I ranting about? Basta. Work-related which I choose not to disclose for the reason na baka makasira ako ng tao, at hindi yun tama. Pero man, grabe, sa pagkakaalam ko pasensiyoso kong tao, as in. Parang kaya ko pa nga ipagyabang yun. But no, nasagad ngayon. Last week pa kasi ito. Add the fact that right now, I'm at my lowest in terms of liking this job of mine. Kung bakit naman may bond kasi. At bakit nga ba????? Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...

Hayyy, I can in all honesty say that I've reached the point of kawalang gana. Sana bumilis na ang oras para uwian na....

Me, a writer! Now that's new.

2008-12-05T16:37:00.003+08:00

We just had our midnight prayer meeting last Sunday, but that's not what I'm writing about - well not just yet. So there, we were having the second meditation part (I think, I don't remember quite clearly. Anyway..) when Jai approached me to ask if I can write an article about the prayer meeting for Ripples (our church's official newsletter). She said Lew "suggested" that I write about it since I know the flow of the program. He even counted the number of attendees: 60, an info he said I'd be needing in writing the article. So, did I have any choice? Hahahaha. Actually, I said yes because I didn't think I'd be writing a NEWS article.. I thought then I'd be writing about it just like this, informally, just like blogging.

Fast forward to last night. We went to Kuya Mar's house to visit Nanay Benita and have fellowship with them. After the "program proper" Kuya Mar asked me if I could write an article about the Thanksgiving Concert we had the other Sunday. And again I found myself saying yes.

I can't really remember the last time I wrote a News article, or if I ever wrote one at all! (Oh I remember now, just this year for our company's newsletter.. Nyak.) Hahahahaha. And I'm not really fond of writing - you know, the REAL writing, those formal need-to-be-published articles, memos and all that. What I do enjoy is doodling thoughts (a.k.a. blogging), not having to mind the sentence construction, flow of thoughts, coherence of ideas, achuchuchu. And considering the chaotic state of mind that I have when it comes to actually speaking out what's inside it, I prefer writing down my thoughts than having to explain them orally. Hence my short description of this dear blog of mine. Hehehe.

See, I just finished another doodle! Hahahahahaha!

Idle time..

2008-12-04T16:30:00.003+08:00

I've finished editing SOPs and filing DCRs, now I've got nothing to do. Again. Hahahaha!

I thought I'd be going to Batangas so I intentionally did not schedule any task for me today. But then, as always, my schedule changed and I'm here in front of my computer staring at the lower right corner of the monitor counting the hours left until 18:30. Man, this is tiring.

Some unknown number texted just now asking if I'm, well, me. I tried calling back but my call's being cancelled.. Hmmm... Who are you anyway?

Huwanep! Real time updates ang blog ko ngayon! Ganon ako ka-bored? Hahaha

Just received for the third time the same text message asking me if I'm Erma.. ?????

It's 16:46 now and I'm doing nothing but this and sound-tripping. My ipod's on random and Boys like Girls is playing.. "I feel like a hero and you are my heroine.."

Updates on the texter. My colleague IMed asking me if her BF texted me. So it's him alright. Another text came, and another. She said they're having a fight just now so I better get out of the way - my next move? Do not reply.

My cubemate is reading this entry as I write. And he's "making hatak daw my jacket". How conyo naman! Hahahaha

Singapore?

2008-11-04T18:27:00.002+08:00

Have just been to meeting with an additive supplier and once again the "Singapore trip" was mentioned.. Honestly I don't want to think about it just yet because knowing the minds of the people responsible for approval of such trips, I can't be so sure unless I have the ticket.

But since Ms. Cherry brought it up with Mark during the meeting, I can't help but be excited! She even asked Mark when is it most convenient to have the training! Hahahahahahaha. Pathetic as it may sound, but nearing the end of the meeting, my mind is already preoccupied with counting people whom to give pasalubongs to. Ahahahahahaha. Excited!

Beautiful Batanes

2008-10-31T13:45:00.008+08:00

Been obsessing about going to Batanes since.. I forgot when. And the picture above is just one of the reasons why.. Haaaaaaay, Batanes, Batanes.

Special thanks to Mr. Uy for the wonderful picture. Click on the this entry's title for more of Batanes pics.

pasasalamat

2008-10-27T17:34:00.001+08:00

Praise God for the recently concluded thanksgiving concert of EBC ANTS: TENkYou!
Indeed, the Lord has been faithful, mula sa pagtanim niya ng idea of a praise and worship tugtugan, hanggang sa katuparan nga ng idea na yun kahapon. Personally sobrang thankful ako sa Kanya for this project, He knew I needed something to help me heal, and so He gave me something to be busy with. And man, talk about busyness, hehehe.
I also thank God for the young people, the ANTS, sobrang encouragement sila sa akin.. Sobra.

Ang saya saya, after months of practices and preparations, lokohan at bad-trip-an, ayun finally natupad na nga ang concert. Even those moments na nakakfrustrate, tapos may mga complicated issues that came up, I know kasama yun sa package, sa test of endurance ni God kung matutuloy ba yung concert. Pero sabi nga ng motto namin: manalig!

Program Proper
Invocation - Still (Lou) w/ Opening Prayer (BJ)
Opening Remarks (Jek)
Scripture reading - Psalm 150 (Dex)
Part I: Take it all
Break free
Every move I make
Found
Hosanna
Through it all
One desire
Special No. 1 - God is walking me through (Heirs)
Special No. 2 - Who am I? (Lou)
Meditation (Ptr. Roi)
Special No. 3 - Oceans will part (Ate)
Special No. 4 - Safe harbour (Heirs)
Part II: Shout to the Lord
How great is our God
From the inside out
More to see
Open the eyes of my heart, Lord
Take it all - reprise
And since na-late ng dating ang Faith friends ni Kristy, they requested that we play the first three songs again. Ok na yung Take it all, Break free at Every move sana, with Hosanna pa daw kung pwede. Kaso Break free na lang ang naidagdag as encore, not enough time na e.
Acknowledgements (Dani)
Closing Prayer (Jek)

Super TENKYU Lord talaga! Sabi ko nga words aren't enough to give Him thanks, andami dami kasing mga bagay to thank Him for, sa sobrang dami parang kulang na yung "thank you", parang kelangan superlative degree. But I know that He can read my heart naman so Lord, THANK YOU po.

I pray that this will be a start especially for the new ANTS na mas lalong ma-involve sa ministry. Sobrang sarap talaga magpagamit kay God, sobra.Ü

Random

2008-10-06T18:30:00.005+08:00

It’s been over 4 months since my last entry about wanting to play praise and worship music in our church again. God indeed hears prayers and this one He answered really fast! We’re having a thanksgiving concert on the 26th, tugtugnan na naman!

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Congratulations to Engr. Roberto B. Santos, Jr. for being the Top 8 in the Sept. 2008 GE Licensure exams!!!!! (Answered prayer ulit.) Glad to have seen your induction ceremonies, sayang nga lang sana nakadala ka camera, tsaka sana sinuot mo yung vest.

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Am having this complicated cough and colds right now.. Should really take care of myself, medicines cost too much (imaging, P232 a day?!?!!). Huhuhu.

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SALAMAT!

Pizza + buffalo wings = katakot takot na ubo

2008-10-02T18:05:00.001+08:00

For the first time in my life, naka-isang slice lang ako ng pizza (plus 4 pcs. buffalo wings, hehehe). Ang hirap kalaban ng ubo lalo na pag may kainan, lugi tuloy ako.. Hehe.

Letters

2008-06-03T15:58:00.003+08:00

A year ago you told me your equilibrium was perturbed by some incidents you really weren't expecting. I completely understood what you meant, I too am undergoing that life-changing thinking sessions you are talking about. But you didn't pay much attention to yours. Maybe that's why you find it harder to handle now. I once heard from a TV series (or a movie, or maybe read in a book, whatever) that the first step to moving on is acceptance. Of the facts, as they are. You need to accept that yes, people change. And that includes me and you. Only then will you be able to think what steps you should take next.

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Congratulations, though I'm not quite sure if that is a reason to celebrate at all. You managed to get through the first stage. But to be honest, I am not 100% happy for you.. Not that I don't want you to experience the happiness you're feeling right now. It's just that I know that it's risky, you might be so happy now but you may end up getting really hurt. And that's what I don't want to see.

Hillsong Live in Manila and the Aftershock

2008-06-03T15:24:00.004+08:00

Yahu!!

Been blessed with four complimentary tickets (lowerbox pa! thanks to my mom and her connections) for last monday's concert of Hillsong at the Dome. Sayang nga lang we didn't have enough time to prepare for the concert - sked and financials - sana our other friends got to experience the same WOW we did (especially me!) din.

I have written in my previous post that I wanted to play music for the Lord, as in praise team, ganun. I'm glad that RJ came, even if it meant him missing one review session (GE boards are coming..), because I wanted to show him what it is I want to be doing. Of course, even deeper than what, I wanted to show him why.. Being there in the concert just singing praise and worship to God is amazing, truly amazing.

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Have informed my church friends about this nagging desire of mine to practice playing praise and worship songs again. It's nice that people have replied positively. Ü. Action item for me: Compile songs and tabs.

Yehey!

Finally...

2008-05-14T13:08:00.003+08:00

Been thinking real hard lately about what I want to do for the rest of my life (see related post) that would give me that ultimate happiness. And just like a bullet straight at my head, i found out what.

I WANT TO BE PLAYING MUSIC FOR THE LORD.

Realized this just a while ago. And thinking about it now, maybe last night's talk with my friends at church (re: rekindling the flame of our praise team) paved the way for this realization. And maybe my accidental discovery of Hillsong's multiply page announcing their concert on the 26th contributed to this eureka moment too. Wow, I feel like I'm really being pointed to a clear direction now.

It's feels different now that I finally know what it is that i REALLY want to do. Not enough words to describe how much awed I am right now. Just three words: God is truly amazing! (Ok, make that four words.)

I love music. And I love the Lord. So why not?! Ü

multiplying

2008-04-14T14:28:00.003+08:00

Congratulations to me I am now able to update (at least once a week) my multiply site. Still has a long way to go, however. I wonder how I can arrange my template to make it look like this blog -- simple yet just the way i like it.

Unsure

2008-02-25T11:58:00.005+08:00

I find myself thinking a lot lately, and it scares me.

For the past n years that I have known how to think, it never occurred to me to question the things that, I believe, make me happy. And contented. I don't really know when this nagging question entered my mind, and since then I just can't shake it off..

What do I REALLY want to do in my life to make me happy?

Not that I'm sad or mad or anything. Actually I find it confusing myself. Argh. What's worse is that I don't know how to share my dilemma to anyone, because I don't really know what it is that I am making a fuss about.

Argh. This is hard.

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Andami kong gusto.
Gusto ko magpunta sa beach para mag-isip ng tungkol sa maraming bagay.
Gusto ko i-try magpunta sa ibang bansa, mag-aral or magtrabaho for a while, just to feel how it is to be alone in a foreign place.
Gusto kong magpaka-loner ng matagal para masort ko kung ano ba talaga gusto kong gawin.
Gusto kong malaman what really matters to me.
Gusto kong may makausap about these without exerting much effort sa pagkkwento kasi alam na niya kung anong nasa isip ko, kasi ako mismo hindi ko alam kung pano ko ito ikkwento.
Gusto kong gumawa ng mga bagay na hindi kailangan isipin kung makaka-offend ba ako ng mga tao sa paligid ko.

Nakakapagod. Ito ba ang mid-life crisis? Is this why they say they "need time to find their selves"? Hindi ko alam.

Question of the Week

2008-01-04T16:42:00.000+08:00

Nakakaprint ka na??

Isinumpa ata itong printer namin. Tapos parang naulinigan ko yung IT namin na sinasabi as, Roy does in The IT Crowd, "have you tried turning it off and on again?" in a sarcastic tone. Kaso mo nga lang pag tipong kada-print mo na lang e kailangan mo siyang i-off at i-on ulit, parang iba na yata yun diba? A very barbaric "pretend-solution" to the problem.

Goodbye Tiny

2008-01-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

I didn't want be attached to our pets because i very well know that if any one of them dies, it would greatly affect me. I guess i failed.

Here's a tribute to our Tiny, for the short time that he was with us.

Who am i?

2007-10-31T17:51:00.000+08:00

My life song:

Who am I that the Lord of all the earth would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt?
Who am I that the Bright and Morning Star would choose to light the way for my ever wandering heart?

Not because of who I am but because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done but because of who You are.

I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow;
A wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor in the wind.
Still You hear me when I'm calling, Lord You catch me when I'm falling;
And You've told me who I am -- I am Yours.

Who am I that the eyes that see my sin would look on me with love and watch me rise again?
Who am I that the voice that calmed the sea would call out through the rain and calm the storm in me?

Not because of who I am but because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done but because of who You are.

I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow;
A wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor in the wind.
Still You hear me when I'm calling, Lord You catch me when I'm falling;
And You've told me who I am -- I am Yours.

Whom shall I fear, whom shall I fear?
Coz I am Yours, I am Yours..

- Who am I?, Casting Crowns

Exponential Delay

2007-10-04T11:55:00.000+08:00

Calculus taught me the concept of exponential growth and decay. It explains basically the idea of suddenly having so many (or so few) of a certain variable within an amount of time, an idea which you would not be able to comprehend if you thought about it in a linear way. Indeed, this concept is very important if you need to understand how populations (of living things), concentrations (of certain solutions), kinetics (of chemical reactions), and many other things, behave.

Ortigas avenue taught me a similarly important concept: the exponential delay. Allow me to exlpain this using the following data.

Approx time of departure from house: Approx time of arrival at the office:
0600h 0720h
0615h 0745h
0625h 0840h

Lesson learned? Time is gold.. No. Time is platinum.

Chasing cars

2007-10-03T17:00:00.000+08:00

..Let's waste time/Chasing cars/Around our heads
I need your grace/To remind me/To find my own..

- Chasing cars, Snow Patrol

I want to own a car. And I'm setting a deadline for myself: Sept. 13, 2009, my 25th birthday.

To meet my goal though, I have to cut back on my expenses as much as I can (say for example my monthly fare budget). And I have to think of ways to increase my savings - it would be very hard to just rely on whatever's left of my monthly income. I've always wanted to have a business of my own, but that would require capital and effort from me, both of which I don't have as of now.

And so I thought of joining a MLM-Direct Selling thing... One that would be easy to manage and whose products are made here in the Philippines. Of course, buy Pinoy, sell Pinoy! And I'm glad I found one: AVON!

People say that if you have a dream you must chase it. I'm chasing my car now.

Making friends

2007-10-02T17:18:00.000+08:00

People often describe me as friendly. And I enjoy the fact that I am. Having many friends in many different places makes your stay in wherever that is extra memorable.

Lately, I again had a chance to meet and be friends with "new" people through our company organized activity - the VAEP. Those who have undergone this team building activity were unanimous in saying that it was fun, and that definitely we'll enjoy it. Indeed I did!

But of course the downside of that is that after the 2-day activity, we all have to be back to our respective departments, and get-togethers like that will be very very rare, even close to no chance at all. That just means i got attached again, because I already know that I will miss our VAEP batch.

I think they all enjoyed the VAEP as well as I did. I just hope the HR will organize the VAEP 2 in such a way that all of us will be batchmates again.

Sinumpong na naman ako

2007-09-10T18:34:00.000+08:00

Dati sobrang gusto kong maging plant-based. Masaya kasi doon. Madali pakisamahan mga tao. Ang ganda ng paligid. Walang stress ang biyahe. Gusto ko pa yung isang position dun, yung OE. Marami kong naiisip na mga reasons para i-feed ang kagustuhan ko na dun na lang maging based.

Pero siyempre, reality check. Malayo yun. Kung iisipin ko ang long-term, magiging mahirap.

So I think there isn't much choice left for me, is there? Haha. Oh well...

Pero ito, paminsan naiisip ko pa rin na "what if?" Hay. Siguro namimiss ko lang ulit ang planta at ang fun and adventures na pwedeng maganap dun. Na-expire na ata yung bisa nung last na over 2 nights' stay namin dun.. Kailangan na mag-recharge.

Haripotpot

2007-09-07T13:02:00.000+08:00

Just finished reading the last installment of the series that started as a fairy tale and ended in a war..

ANG GANDA.

Gusto ko na tuloy ulit basahin mula book 1.

Love Hung on a Cross

2007-08-24T08:02:00.000+08:00

He looked around the hill and foresaw a scene. Three figures hung on three crosses. Arms spread. Heads fallen forward. They moaned with the wind.
Men clad in soldier's garb sat on the ground near the trio...
Women clad in sorrow huddled at the foot of the hill... faces tear-streaked.
All heaven stood to fight. All nature rose to rescue. All eternity poised to protect. But the Creator gave no command.
"It must be done..." he said, and withdrew.
The angel spoke again. "It would be less painful..."
The Creator interrupted softly. "But it wouldn't be love."

- Max Lucado, In the Eye of the Storm

Solitude

2007-08-14T17:37:00.000+08:00

Hi.

I know you enjoy experimenting on the different routes you can take going home.
Even if you are unsure where the tricycle/fx stop is.
Even if you have to walk really long walks just to get to the proper loading stations.
Even if you can't sleep through the journey home because you have to be awake to know exactly where you can have yourself dropped off.
Even if it's more costly than the normal bus-bus route..

Because there are things about your "experiment" that bring you satisfaction.
The long walks through unfamiliar places which are more to you like explorations.
The sense of anonymity that you have with those unfamiliar places.
The chance to just listen to music during the ride home while peering at the window to survey the [again] unfamiliar route..

I know you enjoy those moments when you are alone. And I completely understand. Of course. I am you.

Bakasyon: Epilogue

2007-08-10T11:00:00.000+08:00

I always knew it would work.

The Batangas "vacation", even though it was nothing like a vacation at all because we had tons of work to do there, did very well in refreshing my work-spirit. This week being at the HO felt much better than the past ones prior to the "vacation". And I don't really dwell on the mentor-issue anymore. I kind of accepted it as it is, without much expectations now than before. That way I won't get frustrated again if something not nice comes up.

I think a healthy dose of Batangas, say 3 days every month, would be enough for me to ward off any unwanted feeling here in the HO.

Saved by Safety Pins

2007-08-09T16:28:00.000+08:00

Once again, the faithful safety pins have rescued me.

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It was a very bad combination: pouring rain, mrt ride, meet with friends, and my ripped pants (just don't ask where the rip is). The thought of sewing up my pants before meeting up with my friends is the only thing I have in my mind when I entered National Bookstore. Sadly, there aren't any needles there. But there were safety pins, thanks to the crafts section.

And so because of the safety pins, nobody noticed. :wink:

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Because of Chedeng (heavy rains again), we were allowed to leave work early yesterday. I made use of my time at home by mending my overly large "uniform" pants (pants
again!). Since I don't really know how to go about with the repair, I decided to turn to my evertrusted pins. I managed to sew up my pants using the pins and when I tried
fitting the pants, it was perfect!

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I never thought those pins would really come in handy. From now on, I'd be carrying my pack wherever I go.

Bakasyon!

2007-07-30T18:27:00.000+08:00

Yehey, after weeks of desperation, we finally got our much awaited OB to the plant!!!

As I have mentioned in my previous posts, I need this trip to refresh my mind and more importantly my outlook towards work. Kailangan ko na ng sariwang hangin at magandang tanawin ng Batangas.

And now, the timing's even beter because Sir Torvic will be having a "party" tomorrow to celebrate his bday! Not only that, on wednesday, there will be a basketball game and we will have the chance to watch our friends play!

Excited na ko.. YAHUU!

i cannot imagine myself being stuck with that kind of person for at least 2 more years

2007-07-27T17:10:00.000+08:00

Lately i've been thinking a lot about my job and the frustations that come along with "unmet" expectations.

I was fooled into thinking that I would be mentored by someone who has the skill of, well, mentoring. But now, having just 8 months of "experience", I now see that we're on this training not with a mentor, but with a CHALLENGE.

Early on this so-called training, we already had a glimpse of what it'll be like. But, being new, we knew better than to jump into conclusions that early. We rationalized things, seeing the "positive efforts" that come after "negative situations".

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There will never be any valid reason for anyone to snap at people in front of other people, even if the person you are snapping at is someone of lower, say, authority [which I think makes it even more no-no].

I dread the day that I would be the subject of such humiliating situation. But I dread even more the day that I would lose my enthusiasm to work just because of such people, because honestly, as early as now I'm already quite bothered.

And I still have 2 more years to endure this state.

Am I happy with my job?

2007-07-24T13:19:00.000+08:00

My job's fine, really.
But if I look at the whole set-up (as in the bigger picture: the people, the atmosphere...) it doesn't encourage me to be contented with the fact that my job's just FINE and not GREAT.

So, AM I HAPPY?
I can't really say I'm totally not. But what I do know is that I can [and want to] be happier.

Feeling fuzzy wuzzy inside

2007-07-20T18:28:00.000+08:00

There are times when you have plenty of time to do nothing (like now) and then you begin contemplating on things you shouldn't at all be thinking about. I mean, it's like you're creating a dilemma of your own by thinking of such things when, left unthought of, wouldn't really give you problems at all. Too much thinking indeed isn't healthy--I've known this for a long time now but this brain when left idle just keeps on creating issues.

So does that mean I should always be deep in work so that my mind won't wander off to some create-your-own-dilemma land? As in work here in the office? HERE IN THE OFFICE?!?! Nah.

I think this is a pretty solid reason why I should be back in Batangas. Seriously.

Beautiful Days

2007-07-20T17:07:00.000+08:00

I sooo love the chorus part of this song by Kyla:

I see beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
You’ve touched my heart so deeply
And I can’t thank God enough
For all the beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
Everything is just so wonderful
Every little thing is just so beautiful
When I spend it with you...Ü

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I love this day, a "beautiful day" indeed! I find the saying "when the cat is away, the mice will play" very true to my situation today. Hahahaha. Good thing our internet's back, this mouse now has a lot to play with! Take this blogging for an example. Hehehehe.

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I hope the results turn out ok for the mini-experiment they had back in the lab. Because if it does, that would mean a 2-day "vacation" (at the least i hope) for both Anne and I. We've been missing the "Batangas-life" for ages now and next week seems to me a very good time to be back there. This head office atmosphere is beginning to cripple my mind. I need the fresh air and wonderful sceneries of the road-to-the-JG plant to revive (?) me.

I'm back

2007-07-13T10:11:00.000+08:00

It's been over a month since my last post. Basing on the amount of activity on my blog when I was away, I can see that nobody really noticed my absence. Haha, oh well.

Actually, the absence of internet access in our office went right on time with my intense need to blog, to jot down all random thoughts I have been storing (?) in my mind regarding things that have happened. And since they're all in the past now, the momentum of writing those is now gone.

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Yehey! I'm really glad our internet's back. Now I can post pictures in my Flickr again.
Yahu!

Deja vu

2007-06-08T18:15:00.000+08:00

This explains why we have deja vu. Hmmm...

I remember that film starring Denzel Washington where he was able to time-travel to save the life of a woman who in the end turned out to be the only person who knew about the time-travelling thing he did. I watched this with my two friends (I wonder who they were... ;P) in SM City Batangas. Last full show. And after the movie, the outside of SM felt like it was really really late in the night (or maybe early in the morning?) even though it was just around 10 p.m. then. Well, of course it's different there than here in Manila.

Maybe that's why I like it there.

Magblog na tayong lahat! dali na.

2007-06-04T18:12:00.000+08:00

Tama si iche, nung hindi pa uso ang blogging, may means kaming iba--journal! Take note, barkada journal ito. Think chatroom pero hardcopy. At maraming maraming maraming sikretong naka-embed dun, in crypt or minsan garapal. Kasi iniisip naman IDEALLY wala namang ibang makakabasa nun, so ok lang.

Ngayon wala ng chance makapag-journal. Kamusta naman, pano yun papaikutin? Fedex?? Come to think of it, ginaya pala ng Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants yung concept namin of having to share one special thing with your barkada and you can write just about anything. Wala nga lang kaming pinagpasapasahang pantalon.

Ngayon nga may blog na. Individual entries na nga lang unlike before. But you could always read each others thoughts and comment on those whenever you like. In fairness, buong mundo nga ang pwedeng magcomment e! Pero siyempre duh naman, mag-umepal ba?

I do hope marevive ang mga blogs ng aking prends both college and hiskul. Si iche nagupdate na ulit! Sana rin magkaroon na yung iba para makabalita kung ano ang latest. Para naman hindi puro tungkol kay Ruffa at Yilmaz ang may update ako (gawa ng Unang Hirit sa G-liner).

Excited na ko magbasa..Ü

Gadget craze of the moment

2007-06-01T17:27:00.000+08:00

OLYMPUS STYLUS 770 SW

Pwede na ring..

OLYMPUS STYLUS 725 SW

Haaaaay.....

May isa kong pangarap..

2007-06-01T11:51:00.000+08:00

Dati ko pa gustong manalo sa isang raffle o pacontest na ang premyo ay kahit anong gadget--mp3 player, camera, celfone. Basta yung tipong maffeel mo na huwaw nakakuha ka ng libre!! Ang ultimate para sa akin, siyempre, sasakyan. Brand new SUV type na sasakyan.

Kaso nga lang hindi ako sumasali sa mga pa-contest... Kaya pano ko mananalo.. Actually part yun ng pangarap ko. Tipong sa mall:

"Excuse me ma'am, because you are our nth customer and because we are celebrating our nth anniversary today, we'll be giving you a brand new (insert sasakyan name here)! Congratulations!!!"

Ansarap siguro ng ganun.. Haaaay..

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This is my 100th post, according to the Dashboard!!At dahil ikaw ang 100th person to read my 100th post... Wala lang.

Can Sony Ericsson W810i play mp4 files?

2007-05-31T17:52:00.000+08:00

I was wondering why videos from peewee's fone don't play in mine.. And when I checked the file types, I learned that my recorded videos are 3gp files and wee's are mp4 files. Is that why I can't play them? How come I see the thumbnails of the videos he sent me?

Can somebody help me with this? I want to know what file types my fone can play..

May bagyo ba ngayon?

2007-05-31T15:25:00.000+08:00

Nag-email si sir 3m, malakas daw sobra ang ulan ngayon sa planta. Ang cool siguro nun kung OB kami ni anne sa planta tapos umulan ng sobrang lakas hanggang sa ma-stranded na kami sa lab. In fairness may supplies naman dun ng food, sa safety, kasi before nangyari na na may na-stranded. Naisip ko ang saya siguro nun kasi after office hours, la na required gawin sa lab. E may net dun. May internal e-mail pa. Pwedeng mangulit sa mga tao through mail! Or better yet, kung shift ng mga friends namin nun sa safety pwede namin papuntahin sa lab! Kung shift din nun mga friends namin sa operations at saktong walang takbo, pwede kaming manggulo sa control! How cool can that be!

Kaso mo nga lang imbento ko lang lahat yun. Parang napakaimposible namang all at the same time e mangyari lahat nung ganung pangyayari. Besides, mag-OB pa nga lang [ako] sa planta e parang imposible na e. The rest pa kaya.

I know how to say 'hi' in swahili!

2007-05-30T18:21:00.000+08:00

Jambo!
Hahahahahaha. Salamat sa Flicker, nawiwiden ang vocabulary ko! International pa!

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Nabasa ko ang archives ko dito. In fairness ang dami na sobrang nangyari. Hindi pa kami ni boyps nung sinimulan ko magblog, ngayon magththree years na kami!

Andami kong mga tagos-sa-pusong entries nung 2004. Napaalala sa akin ang mga bagay-bagay: past decisions, burdens, joys, at mga things to pray for. Hanggang ngayon pinagdarasal ko pa rin ang mga iyon. And I'm claiming victory in God's name. Sabi nga sa I John 5:14-15..

"And this is the confidence that we have in Him, that, if we ask anything according to His will, He heareth us; And if we know that He hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of Him."

And I do believe it is God's will to have more people as His children.

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May sweldo na, yahay! Sa wakas may pera na ulit ako. Ang hirap ma-zero. Kahapon nga ang poorest moment ko e. Umuwi ako ng P1 lang ang extra money. E ang lakas pa ng ulan. Pinagpray ko na lang na if ever mastranded ako, may mahagilap akong pera sa loob ng bag para naman may pangkain ako at least. In fairness, answered prayer, in a different way nga lang. May tira nga pala kong ulam na chicken. At hindi ako nastranded, buti na lang.

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Natapos ko na i-edit ang blog ko!!! Wonderful skin!!! I've never been happier (blog skin lang ang usapan). Sobrang kontento na ko sa itsura ngayon.Ü

WOW

2007-05-29T18:37:00.000+08:00

ayun na. wow. ang ganda na ng template ko!!! yehey!!!
buti na lang pala nag-browse pa ko ng other sites at nakita ko ito para pagkuhaan ng bago kong blog template.

ang ganda niya talaga, ang cool ng pull down menu..

ang saya.

yehey!

(bukas ko na ipopolish ang footer ko. uwian na e.)

Tabuk

2007-05-29T11:58:00.000+08:00

They'll be leaving tonight (i think). THEY, meaning I'm not included. Argh.
They shouldn't have mentioned "white water rafting" in their to-do list. Now I'm left extremely envious.
And I can't do anything but rant.

Argh.

Extraordinary games: Killers v.1

2007-05-25T16:10:00.000+08:00

Last played: ~ 2nd yr. college
Most often played during: Elementary schooldays

Mechanics:
1) You have to have at least 5 players--Killer, Policeman, Doctor, Judge, and of course, Victim.
2) The role is determined by drawing lots.
3) The Killer kills by winking at the other players.
4) The Doctor heals by winking as well.
5) All those who died must say "I'm dead" so that the Doctor will know who to heal. If after saying this nobody other than the Killer winks at you again, it means that the Doctor has been killed before you.
6) If the Killer kills the Police and the Police gets healed by the Doctor, the Police can say "I caught you!" to the Killer. This will end the game: the Killer loses and gets the punishment.
7) If the Police gets killed and no one heals him (meaning the Doctor has died before him), the Killer can kill everyone and this will end the game. The Killer wins and the Police gets the punishment.
8) If the Killer kills the judge, the game ends, the Killer wins and the Police gets the punishment.
9) The Judge decides what punishment should be imposed.

Modifications:
1) As the number of players increase, more Victims can be added, but you can also add more Policemen and Doctors. Just see to it that the Killer and Judge remain just 1 person each.
2) Victims can assume different professions (Bartender, Driver, Celebrity, etc.) to add fun to the game.

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I really enjoyed playing this game. I remember we used to have really funny Victim names like Macho/Agogo Dancer, Butata, etc. I even remember one of my classmates (Edward) laughing while saying "Butata!" out loud. Hahahahaha.

How I miss those times.

I have a quantum sensor in my nose.

2007-05-24T18:23:00.000+08:00

Hmmm. That's a mouthful.

While trying to research on some plastics-related innovations and developments on the net, I chanced upon this interesting article discussing the nose and how it smells scents. Come to think of it, we don't really care (at least I don't) how sweet the scent of a certain sweet smell is. Or how pungent a pungent odor is.

La lang. Thoughts to ponder.
;D

Heroes

2007-05-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

I tried uploading videos to Yahoo! Videos yesterday, and after seeing just one short clip, I think our system somehow blocked all other vidoe clips from playing. So now that I found the site where I can watch episodes of Heroes in full, I still can't.

View episodes here.

Aaaaaarrrggh.

Rainy days

2007-05-23T12:31:00.000+08:00

Our summer getaway ended with a storm coming, surely putting a close to the extremely hot summer season.

Rainy season reminds me of many things. Before, I used to just remember my highschool days: times when we got stranded in the dorm because of class suspensions due to typhoons, playing everything in the rain (volleyball, basketball, even soccer in the "lightning prone" soccer field). But now that my college life is over, I also remember past scenes spent at UP: walking in the rain with umbrellas trying to transfer from one place [building] to another without being soaked, but never really making it without getting wet; tambayan moments waiting for the announcement from the Admin that classes are suspended; cutting classes still waiting for THE announcement. They say the older you get, the more memories you have. Indeed.

I enjoy the rainy days. I enjoy the cold feeling it brings and that you have to wear an extra something over to keep yourself warm. I enjoy hunting for new umbrellas that are functional at the same time cute and cheap (that's because my umbrellas don't seem to last that long, either they're broken or they just disappear). I enjoy the challenge of being stranded in wherever place, given that i have enough resources--MONEY, to help me survive hunger and to see me through extra transportation expenses. I enjoy reminiscing all those rainy day memories I have stored in my mind.

I enjoy the rainy days, minus all the tragic occurences that tag along with it.

My question answered

2007-05-17T17:22:00.000+08:00

"Never let the things you want make you forget the things you already have."
--- forwarded text message

Ito pa:

"6) There is no better "here". When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here"."

--- from a forwarded e-mail

Wow. That hits home.

Wanting what you have or having what you want?

2007-05-15T16:51:00.000+08:00

Will you stick to what you have now and do everything to modify the situation in such a way that in the end it would become what you always wanted? Or will you quit the present and pursue what you wish for leaving everything you've worked for just like that?

What if after you've done everything you could, the outcome is still not want you hoped it would be? What if after you've pursued you're so-called dream you realize you're still not contented, again finding yourself wishing for something better?

If you stayed, how will you know what would happen if you left? If you left, how would you know what will happen if you stayed?

My head is racing trying to search for answers..
Tell me.

Prayer for the country

2007-05-11T18:20:00.000+08:00

I've watched Isang Tanong last Sunday and I'm happy that I did. Kudos to GMA for having a show like that to serve as awakeners for voters who are still in the dark as to the names they'll be writing down their ballots. I for one benefited from the show--helped me add a few to my [short]list.

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Election day is fast approaching, and I find myself a bit excited to know what the results would be like. Compared to the previous elections, I think the voters now are, well, should I say, more intelligent. In fact, I was able to hear that same comment from Unang Hirit during one bus ride to work, and I found myself agreeing. Maybe those people who were apathetic before finally realized that if they still don't act (vote at the least), change won't happen. And we badly need it. Not tomorrow, but NOW.

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I've received a mail from one of my egroups that a certain Dr. Matin Bautista is running for senator. I first thought, hmmm, a newbie. And there was a link in the message to his blog, so I got curious and I visited his page. After reading a bit of his thoughts, I decided that this man is one person I would love to see in the senate. I just thought that it's either those written there were sincere thoughts of his, or he's just one great writer. I chose to believe he's for real, and for that I am campaigning for him, even if I don't know him!

There's another newbie in the senatoriables that was added to my list thanks to Isang Tanong: Zosimo Paredes. I don't know him either, but I sensed from his answer that he would be a good leader, having Christ as his "driver". Hearing his answer really gave me the goosebumps. There is hope for the Philippines.

Those two senatoriables I believe are from the Kapatiran Party, another which I'm not familiar of. All I know is that they are much apart from the traditional parties that we have. I also know they have another one running for senator, I just don't know his name.

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I believe it is because of continued frustration both in the government and the opposition that new people with uncorrupted principles step up. And I thank God for giving us those people who are willing to do the first move. I hate to sound like a fan of the three, or the Kapatiran Party for that matter, but I think they can start the change. I remember writing down in my previous posts that what our country needs is a serious moral overhaul. I still do. I know for sure it won't happen in a flash, but I pray that it happens now.

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It makes me sick to hear people giving up on our country, that there's no more hope for our situation to change and that we should just migrate and find better life elsewhere. I believe everyone can start a change, but of course it would have to be a group effort. We all can do something even if we think we can't. We can pray.

And I do hope all of us would be doing that for the coming elections, and for the rest of the times as well. May we all love our country. After all, who else would we expect to love it but us?

Snow Patrol fan

2007-05-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

I'm becoming one because of just two tracks: Chasing Cars (Grey's Anatomy OST) and Signal Fire (Spiderman 3 OST). The first time I heard Chasing Cars I was like, "is that Coldplay??". REALLY nice song. Reminded me so much of The Scientist (Coldplay) and the movie it was from---Wicker Park.

They sound so not-pop-nor-rock-but-just-laid-back-alternative-kind-of-band, and I love it! (Same reason why I like Coldplay. And I saw from the net that some are actually comparing the two. Well, I like them both.)

And the lyrics, there's depth in them. But of course, as I've said, I just know 2 songs of theirs.

Here are lines I just love:

"The perfect words never crossed my mind
Cause there was nothing in there but you.."
-- Signal Fire

"..I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words,
Are said too much
They're not enough .."
-- Chasing Cars

Just plain lovely.

Lifestyle modifications (by Dr. Tan)

2007-05-10T11:20:00.000+08:00

To answer my unending "breathing difficulty" problem due to hyperacidity, my so-called doctor advised me the following:

1. Head of bed elevation
--Kopya.

2. Avoidance of reflux inducing foods (fatty foods, chocolate, peppermint, excessive alcohol, also colas, red wine, orang juice).
--Fatty foods? Chocolates? huhuhuhuhu. Come to think of it, pampapayat din itong suggestion na ito. Yung iba no problem (especially alcohol and red wine, di naman talaga ko umiinom ng mga ito).

3. Refraining from assuming a supine position after meals and avoidance of meals before bedtime.
--Mismo. Sige na nga, bawal na pasaway..

4. Avoidance of tight fitting garments.
--?!? Di ko alam kung malalait ba ko dito pero natawa talaga ko. Ganun na ba ko kataba? Hahahahaha.

5. Promotion of salivation by either eating chewing gum or oral lozenges may be helpful in mild heartburn.
--Kopya.

6. Restriction of alcohol use and elimination of smoking.
--N/A

EBC Circle at the Wedding

2007-05-08T12:36:00.000+08:00

These photos were taken after the wedding of Ate Beulah and Pastor Chris.

Hahahahaha! Look at how Pastor Chris did his jump! Parang sumasayaw-click heels lang! Si Ate Beulah todo talon din kitang-kita ang saya!

This is us, pilit na pinagkakasya ang mga mukha sa circle.

2 outings in 1

2007-04-30T18:28:00.000+08:00

Ang saya ko, naattendan ko parehas! I knew my being stubborn would pay off. Hehehe.

Part I:
Super thanks to Sir Jaz who went out of his sched just to fetch us... Tapos late pa kami. Kakahiya. Gatong pa si Eson. We arrived there around 1830h, the committee was already there setting up the place.

We had so much food to eat that night, ang konti lang kasi namin (10 lang kami lahat) tapos ang dami food. May sinigang, may barbecue, may dumplings, may mangga with itlog na maalat, may pakwan. Sarap!

Nung gabi nag-swim swim na kami, tsinaga yung mababang tubig. Napakalabong mangyaring malunod ako dun. Tapos tambay sa dalampasigan.

Kinabukasan nagdatingan na mga tao. Fun sana yung games kaso nga lang kinailangan ko na ulis ng maaga kasi kailangan ko pa pumunta sa isa pang laboy.

Part II:

I left Batangas around 1200h, and yet I arrived at Antipolo around 1830h na! Kamusta naman sa pagkabiyahera.

Ayun, siyempre pagdating dun, hindi mawawala ng kainan at kantahan! Hehehe. Bisyo ng lahat: videoke!

Namili din kami for our next day's food--malaplanning sem talaga (sayang kasi we're not complete, we're missing our Pres. and VP PRC). Ater nun kain lang at langoy na! Actually, it was more of daldalan na change venue lang. Nalipat lang sa pool habang nagpaparalutang-lutang kami sa tubig.

And then came the end of my laboy weekend. Super fun at a low-cost! Enjoy!

Ate Beulah

2007-04-25T11:32:00.000+08:00

Natapos kagabi ang surprise send off party namin para kay Ate Beul. Simple lang pero makahulugan. Mahirap mapigilang hindi mag-senti lalo na alam naman ng lahat na malapit na talaga siya malayo. Nagkakulitan, naglaro, at nagdramahan, at siyempre nagkainan, hanggang sa natapos na nga yung munting surprise namin sa kanya.

Tama si Ate Beulah, kahit hindi kami masyado close, nakakamiss pa rin dahil sa mere fact na hindi na makikita at malalayo na. Ganon ang naffeel ko, hindi naman kasi kami masyado close, pero alam kong mamimiss ko talaga siya.

Tama rin si Ate Bethel. Memories will remain as memories until finally we forget. Kaya mas mainam isulat para kung sakaling makalimutan, may makapag-papaalala.

Isunusulat ko ito ngayon kasi ayokong makalimot.

Tsk, tsk, tsk

2007-04-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

The company outing was supposed to be on the 21st but was moved to the 28th so more people from Operations can come. Incidentally, we'll be having our EC semplanning (not really, hehe, semplanging's more like it. ;P) on that same day.

Now, I don't want to miss any of the two because:
1) Given the high rate of turnover in our company, I would want to grab the chance of being with everyone (our friends that is) in Batangas while they're still in JG; and
2) After our term (05-06) we EC never had our "EC overnight" where we can do just everything we did during our sem plannings minus the planning.

Hence, my dilemma.

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2007-04-24T14:35:00.000+08:00

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Farewells..

2007-04-23T14:07:00.000+08:00

Last week we said goodbye to one of our katropa in our department (Batangas-based)-Sir Keats. He'll be leaving JG for another company-one that could give him satisfaction both in terms of work and compensation.
We have been told many times over about the high rate of turnover in our company. And yes, we've heard so many stories of whoevers leaving even if they haven't been regularized yet. But it still felt different that someone whom you got to spend time with is joining the flock. Sad... :(

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Tommorow we'll be holding a farewell party for one of our churchmates-Ate Beulah. She'll be married on thursday and will be living with her husband in Tabuk since then. It makes me sad to think of her leaving, especially when I try to imagine what it feels like being in her shoes. Yes, of course, marriage is one splendid thing in anybody's life. But being away from your family (both biological and social) whom you've lived with and grown with for n years of your life... It's impossible not to be sad.

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I know I'll still see both of them sometime else, though not regularly anymore.

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The thing is, I never really liked farewells.. Goodbyes.. I just want everybody, everything around me, to stay right where they are. Ironic for someone like me who wants to explore places and make new friends in wherever place I am.
Pero basta..

I just don't want anybody leaving.

On the way to JG

2007-04-20T17:36:00.001+08:00

These are photos I took from my window during my "last" bus ride to JG. That was March 9. Now all I see from my bus rides here in Manila are streets filled with people, buildings, and a lot of pollution.

Last wednesday's journey to the plant however didn't feel as nostalgic as it was supposed to, primarily because I slept through it.
It really felt great to be back at the plant, seeing the wonderful view around, and having a chance to mingle with the people again. I miss being in the plant a lot, and yet when I'm back there, it feels like I was never away. Maybe because the people there always make us feel welcome, like we really belong there.

Nakakahiya ako

2007-04-12T08:33:00.000+08:00

Kanina nung nasa bahay pa ako papasok may parang sumabit sa bag ko. Tinignan ko naman, wala naman. E di sige nagmamadali ako, palabas ng bahay. Nagtataka ko bakit parang ang weird nung bag ko, parang ang bigat. E di ininspect ko yung loob, so inattribute ko na lang dun sa planner ko at sa marami pang laman ng bag ko yung kabigatan.

Pagdating sa gate ng subdivision, abang-abang konti ng bus, wala, sakay ng jip.. Dun ko napansin...

MAY NAKASABIT NA HANGER SA BAG KO!

Kaya pala parang pinagtitinginan ako.

Missing the plant

2007-04-11T18:22:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since my last visit to the plant, and up to now I still have no schedule as to when I will be going back. Sadness.

Good thing there's this internal e-mail where we get to 'chat' with our friends there in batangas while at work. Somehow makes me feel a little closer to the plant. Not to mention the calls I make to the lab and just a while ago, to the control room! (That's one place I truly miss!)

But still, nothing comes close to the real thing. Looks like I still have to do away with these pictures for now (until who knows when).

My job description

2007-04-04T17:57:00.000+08:00

Quoted from http://jgspetrochem.com/careers_job_openings.html:

"TMT Job Summary
The TMT facilitates product and raw material-related processes which have direct impact on customer satisfaction: customer complaint resolution, product application development and technical service investigation relevant to the first two processes. Participates in product improvement, product development and raw material pre-qualification/ approval/ disqualification through obtaining/ preparing samples (for testing by the Technical Service Laboratory) using customers' equipment. Participates in sending out samples to Univation, Dow and other raw material or technology providers, including document preparation.

Product Research & Development & Technical Services
They are responsible for customer complaint resolution, product application development, product development, product improvement, product literature development, product testing, raw material qualification, as well as technical service testing/investigation/experimentation."

Hmmm.. Good thing I visited our site. Now I know what to tell people when they ask me what I do for work. It's sort of hard to explain what we do, you know, in a brief but concise description. Thanks to whoever wrote the write-ups, it won't be so hard anymore.

JERCK Reunion

2007-04-03T18:31:00.000+08:00

After about 5 months, we were able to see each other again to hang out and, well, just have fun!

Venue: Megamall

It was really convenient for me to meet there because it is the nearest [nice enough] mall to our house. Not to mention it is the mall I frequently go to.

First thing we did was eat. Razon's halo-halo. We tried it out because we've been hearing a lot about it. Not THAT good for those wanting more 'laman' out of their halo-halo. But since I enjoy the ice more than the other ingredients, I found it good enough. At least it's not overly sweet (and it doesn't have monggo or beans, hehehe).

Then... videoke! We all agreed on doing videoke (even if JoAnne's complaining about her husky voice already, haha) for the afternoon. We sang and sang and danced and sang until it was time for us to eat dinner. Actually, even if we were able to spend around 2 hours for the singing, I still felt we lack time. Maybe because I missed hanging out with them... Awww...

And then after eating we had to go. But of course we'll be doing that again. And again. And again.
Ü
I hope we can find a regular schedule for that.

Summer getaway

2007-04-02T17:32:00.000+08:00

These are shots taken during our first puerto trip. I just love the contrast between the sand and the sea and the sea and the sky!

Can't wait to have our next barkada getaway! After all, the last one was way back 2004.. I hope all our preparations for this May getaway run smoothly.. And this time, I won't be volunteering to look for transpo. Hehehe.

Homecoming

2007-03-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

Ngayong gabi, finally makakabalik na ko sa aking pseudo-home.

Batangas.

Staffhouse # 4

2007-03-22T15:10:00.000+08:00

namimiss ko na ang san isidro village...
namimiss ko na ang staffhouse...

Disappointment

2007-03-21T12:23:00.000+08:00

di na ko kasama sa ob bukas. naexcite pa naman ako ng sobra. nalulungkot ako. kala ko makakabalik na ko batangas di pala.

:(

Excitement

2007-03-20T18:22:00.000+08:00

We're going to Batangas on thursday! Yehey!

It's a good thing I stayed with Anne during her conversation with Ma'am, because of that, she changed her mind and allowed me to go with them for the ITDI issue. Must be the puppy look which got to her, hahahahahaha.

I wonder how it feels like to actually be there not as a trainee anymore..?

Another monday

2007-03-19T07:57:00.000+08:00

I arrived a little earlier than 7, expecting to be welcomed by my 2 colleagues (for today we're on OB), only to find out that they haven't arrived yet. And up to now, I'm here at the office, waiting to leave.

Ang aga ko na naman.

Ultimate boredom

2007-03-15T12:07:00.000+08:00

kamusta naman.
2 lang kaming naiwan dito, yung 5 naka-ob.
buti pala naiwan si jums kung hindi mag-isa lang ako dito.

masakit pala sa mata ang magbasa sa monitor ng kung anu-anong articles tungkol sa plastics.
naku baka maging plastic na din ako.
hmmm... if ever, ano kaya? PE o PP?
kung PP, homo o random?
aaaarggh... sinasaniban na ko ng spirito ni evalene.

akala ko pa man din magiging uber busy ako dito dahil la tao.
but no.
hay.

Epilogue: Batangas training

2007-03-09T08:29:00.000+08:00

Last day of training in batangas.. Just when I thought I already got used to our boy-who-cried-wolf farewell (due to our many extensions), here I am feeling sad.

I always am easily attached to certain things, often inanimate, with which I have invested my time. Like places I've been to that holds memories of events I cannot bring back nor repeat. TUMCS, pisay, room 314 of my highschool dorm, KEM tambayan, eng'g, up, sunken garden... I know I can always go back to those places, but still, it would feel different than before. It's like you were a part of that place and now, if you go back, you're just a mere visitor.

Batangas has been home to me for the 3 months that I've been training.
The morning jog to catch ALPS,
the ~15minute-bus ride to the plant,
the walk down the stairs from admin to the process area,
the climb up the reactors and vrs and tanks,
the singing-ala-videoke during lunch at PP rx,
the badminton classes at recfacil,
the please-check-your-time announcement at 1730H,
the where-do-we-go-tonight adventures,
the staffhouse tambay with friends...
I'm sure gonna miss all those. It was like we were part of the JGSPC plant family, even though we're just 'ampons' being based really at the head office.

Feels like another chapter of my life is closing. A very colorful and happy one.

Random thoughts

2007-03-08T15:00:00.000+08:00

I just saw safety's new jacket. It's, well... RED. And it's... easily seen. Serves its purpose quite well. Although.. Hehe.
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We'll be spending our last night at the staff house tonight. I'm sure gonna miss that house. And the village. But of course we still have the chance to stay there whenever we're on OB.

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We have asked permission to leave by lunch tomorrow. And we were granted! Go go puerto!

Realizations and reunions

2007-03-07T16:55:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging since I don't know when, and just recently, out of boredom i guess, i revived this blog. Maybe because this whole Batangas experience is one worth blogging. AND I won't miss this chance of writing down events and thoughts that I know I would want to remember for the days to come.

As an attempt to refresh this blog, I tried changing the template. And I started visiting my friends' blogs as well, to make sure the links are, well, still working (huh, lame!). That was when I realized: it's really been so looooong. There was this time when many of those i know are hyped up about blogging, but obviously that time has passed. Some have changed their blogsites, some (like me) have not posted updates at all.

And so I decided to maintain this blog as religiously as I can. Not to mention visit those of my friends. Serves as a way of somehow connecting to them, to know what's going on in their lives.

I should and will keep in touch.

Badminton: pangkontra sa pagtaba

2007-03-06T15:37:00.000+08:00

Ang tagal ko nang walang regularly nilalarong sport. Tapos since 5th year di na ko nagchcheering. Kaya naman ako nananaba, wala na kong macoconsider na workout, to think since high school e active-active akong bata. Haaaay... Wierd nga, nagsimula akong manaba talaga nung plant design days -- na supposedly ay sobrang stressful time of my life. Dahil ba puro utak ang gumagana that time? E di ang sexy na pala sobra ng utak ko.

Three weeks ago, sinamahan kami ni sir vlad sa recfacil during lunch break to play badminton. Ayun, enjoy naman, palo palo. Well since kabataan naman kasi e naglalaro na ko ng badminton because of my mom, yun nga lang e hindi yung by the rules. Palo palo lang. This time, thanks to our mentors/coaches (sir jojo, sir almer) nattrain kami na maglaro ng totohanan. Tipong pang-competition. Tamang tindig, tamang lugar ng kamay, tamang palo... Parang libreng badminton classes. Enjoy kapag laro na, no mercy. Pinapaluan nila kami, ayos lang training din sa pag-receive ng bola.

Sabi nga namin ni anne kakaririn namin para naman may maituring kaming sport. Tsaka para pag nasa head office na kami makasama kami sa laro nila. Who knows, baka magdoubles pa kami ni anne come competion, nyahaha.

And of course gusto ko ding magkaroon ng pagkaka-activean physically. Para naman di lang stagnant ang mga fats ko dito, ayan tuloy naiipon na. KAILANGAN PUMAYAT. Di naman skinny, kailangan ko lang mabalik yung dati kong built na katanggap-tanggap para sa akin.

Go go, kaya ko yan.

Visit to M/V Doulos

2007-03-05T16:02:00.000+08:00

Against M/V Doulos

With M/V Doulos staff

Onboard the ship with our maintenance friends

Day 2 visit

Last week we were able to visit M/V Doulos, a ship built 2 years after Titanic which sails around the world as a floating library. It was really a great feeling to be onboard that ship, to think that it has roamed the world many times already! Astig.

I was able to buy quite a number a stuff from the ship: 3 audio cds for only P50, and 4 books (including an NIV Bible!) amounting to P400 only. Our friends even gave us a Doulos mug as a souvenir of our trip.

Back to Manila

2007-03-02T16:52:00.000+08:00

In less than an hour we would be leaving Batangas again to go home. That would mean 5 grueling hours of travel with an empty stomach and earphones in my ears. Then on Sunday afternoon we'll be travelling again to return here -- our last return trip to complete the whole Batangas training experience.

After the many extensions we had in our training here, I guess I sort of got used to the feeling of sadness that comes with leaving Batangas. One more week left. And this time it's for real..

Yema, plaques, izod testing

2007-03-02T10:25:00.000+08:00

One of our workmates sell yema with different flavors: langka, cheese, macapuno, nut.. My favorite of course is langka. Yum yum.. Actually, before i used to not like yema beacause it's soooo sweet. But then one time when I ate one while feeling so sleepy, i instantly felt alive! Too much sugar I suppose. Come to think of it, maybe that's why I'm beginning to "inflate" again.. Argh. So how am I supposed to stay awake now. Good thing there's this vacant pc to waste my time with. But sadly this won't be for long..

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I just finished all my testings for today, and so I'm left now with nothing to do. Obviously. Hence my blogging. Actually those two tests assigned to me today are those I find least demanding of energy. For the knowledge of you readers out there, the samples I'm testing are plastics. Yep. Plastics. Plastic plaques. There are numerous tests to determine the their performance (strength, etc.) when used in their respective applications. And today I was assigned the two least-energy-demanding-yet-quite-enjoyable tests: izod testing (for impact), and hardness. 4 samples for hardness and 2 for izod. Summed up, took just about half an hour! Talk about light work. I love this training. Ü

Blog revival, change of thoughts

2007-03-01T15:34:00.000+08:00

Seems like years since i last posted an entry here.. What exactly happened in between Sept06 and today? A LOT. Well there's this board exam to prepare for which happened on Nov... And after that came my job which brought me all the way from manila to batangas city!

We got our extension! That means we still have roughly two weeks here in Batangas to enjoy. Honestly, I still cannot think of having to go to work everyday in Manila now that i had a taste of what it's like to be working here in Batangas. BUT my thoughts on staying here have changed. Maybe I really needed the extension for me to realize that being assigned here in the plant entails MANY changes for me if I have to think about my future..

Hala time na pala, bukas na ulit.

Batangas doodles

2007-01-18T08:20:00.000+08:00

Kahapon nasira ang mga pangarap naming ma-extend ang "field trip" namin dito sa Batangas. Although alam ko na naman from the start na our stay here won't last, somehow winiwish ko na maprolong... Kahit a month lang, or a week, basta humaba lang ng konti. But no, having talked with our boss yesterday, naputaok ang bubble of hope ko.

For more than a month now, we've stayed here in Batangas and have come to know a lot of people. As in a lot. First day pa lang ang dami nang mukha. Ang nakakataba pa ng puso, ang warm ng welcome sa amin. Madali tuloy makapag-adapt sa new environment.

I fell in love with Batangas nung first week pa lang. Ngayon lang ako naka-experience ng hassle-free na pagpasok (well of course pag nalate e ibang usapan na yon). No traffic, no pollution. All we had to do is et ourselves ready and wait for the bus. OR whoever na dadampot sa amin in case late kami at naiwan ng bus (which, mind you, e madalas mangyari). Bukod dun ang ganda sobra ng view every morning. Sobrang good morning talaga with scenic views all aroud: bundok, dagat, magandang sky at sunrise.

Di lang ang paligid ang nakaka-inlove, pati work dito nagustuhan ko. My 8 days (o diba ang saglit lang) of stay in the operations department made me realize na gusto ko dun. Career-wise, sobrang naakit ako sa kob description nila. Parang katuparan na kasi ng ChE pangarap. Sabi ko nga, sa operations kasi yun na yun -- heart and soul of ChE. Reactors, distillation column, process. Astig. Kinain ko lahat ang sinabi ko before na if ever magkatrabaho na, ayoko sa planta kasi malayo. Ngayon gusto ko na dito. Yun nga lang, malayo. Pero kung gusto lang, gustong gusto.

Isa pang malaking factor ang mga tao. My first week in the head office does not even come close to my first days sa planta. Sabi ko nga ang warm ng welcome sa amin. Madali makagain ng friends. Isipin mo, yung mga nakasama namin for a day lang, sila na yung mga nagin tropa namin dito. Ganun kadali. Which makes me even more sad to think we'll be leaving in less than a month na. Dami na memories and experiences na maganda, hirap na mag-let go..

We've got 3 weeks more to maximize our stay here. Sabi nga namin sulitin na dahil saglit lang dito. At talagang sinusulit nga namin. Panigurado mamimiss ko dito. Peo habang andito pa, mag-iipon na muna ko ng mas marami pang happy memories para mabaon sa pagbalik namin sa manila.

Gender Issues

2006-09-12T12:59:00.000+08:00

After the long and tedious process of having my "sex change", finally... I'm a female!

(For those who didn't know yet, i was wrongly labeled "male" in my birth certificate. Thanks to whoever that was who did the records.)

Yesterday, I went to Manila City Hall to claim THE court order: that my birth certificate be corrected from male to female. It felt weird being questioned about my femininity, specially during the court trial...

Q: What proof do you have that you are indeed a female?
A: (dumbfounded at first..) Well, all my medical records since my birth can proove that I AM a female! (with a "duh?!" facial expression)
Q: Do you have them with you?
A: As in now?
Q: Yes
A: Um, no...

Barado.

But now I sort of wish I could have said..

Q: What proof do you have that you are indeed a female?
A: Well sir, for one, I have a uterus. And I also have 2 ovaries. And I have loads and loads of estrogen hormones running through my body. So unless you, being a male I suppose, have those too, I believe I can say that I am indeed a female, sir.

<Clap, clap, clap. Judge stands while clapping tremendously. All else stand except for the humiliated (enemy) lawyer.>

Anyway, even if that was not the scene back then, I still have the last laugh now.

Simple (?) Thermodynamics

2006-09-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

I remember a line from a physical chemistry book which says:
"Some things naturally happen, some things don't."
Thus, the concept of spontaneity.

Wow. What a useful insight that can easily find its use in dealing with life! And to think the line came from a chemistry textbook.. (phychem for that matter)

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I was studying thermodynamics (again for the boards) when I realized that I am indeed using up a whole lot of energy just so i can proceed with this obviously non-spontaneous action (called studying). Talk about applying what you've learned.

balik sayans balik blue jeans

2006-09-04T14:09:00.000+08:00

After missing pisay for quite some time now, it finally happened. Our homecoming. And now it's over.

Seeing the surroundings--the flagpole area, front lobby, creek, dorm, back lobby, oval, and gym, it felt like i was transported back in time, to my good old high school days. The place didn't change much, which made it easier for me to reminisce all the memories of 4 years of pisay life i've kept for more than five years now. But more than the place itself, i missed the people.

With all those batchmates around, it felt like home again. Balik pisay. Balik hayskul. Except for the physical changes, some getting bigger (fatter?), others slimmer, the people are really quite the same as five years back. The old "groupings" are there: (may)josacola, solid, backboys, corpo, st.mary's people, the very big crowd of benaphotau, other science streamers, and of course us jerck.

Haaay.. Nostalgic talaga. And sad cause it didn't last long. One night is really not enough to satisfy my yearning for that reunion..

Sana may tech party. Sana soon.

Elementary Days

2006-08-30T09:10:00.000+08:00

They say that the older you get, the more memories you keep. That's how I know I AM getting old..

The death of one of our batchmate's mom got me to thinking about the people whom i shared my "youthful" days with. And I felt sad when I realized that most of them stayed together until the end of highschool, but not me. Not that I'm regretting my highschool life-definitely not. It's just sad to know that if ever we get some time to be together again, as in the whole batch, I know I won't be much in part of the majority's reminiscing because I only got to be with them during elementary days.

But I still wish we could find time to see each other again. I'm glad that somehow our egroup managed to stay, well, alive (?) even if there's not much activity going on in there.. I hope there would be.

Cancer

2006-08-27T13:14:00.000+08:00

Because of staying at home, I am able to watch news on TV daily. It's depressing to know that our country seems to be going nowhere. With all the politics in our government, it's not surprising at all that up to now, we still have a loooot of problems unsolved. Imagine, only a mere 40% of the country's population have toilets (stats from Jessica Soho)!
Just the other day, my sister asked me if I still believe that our country can recover from all its problems, if there's still hope. I heard myself saying yes, although it felt to me like a wish instead of a stand.
For me, what our country needs is a serious moral overhaul. From stories I've heard, it's really hard for "straight" people to stay that way once they are submerged in a bent system. And those who managed to keep their principles in tact chooses to flee before they get eaten up.
Sad.
And even sadder because even though I want change to happen, I am powerless.

Playlist of the Day

2006-08-22T11:10:00.000+08:00

I was reading through Perry's when i heard from Jam djs that they're having this average joe's playlist segment where any listener can name three songs which they will be playing. I thought maybe i could participate in this program of their's and so i started keying in my phone the songs i wanted to be aired. But i realized that because i have not been listening to the radio lately, i have forgotten the number to which you can send your text messages to. So i waited for the djs to recap their station's contact details. And, just like an answer to my dilemma, they announced that they would be prioritizing entries from calls instead of those from text messages. Ok.

It wasn't easy naming my three songs because, although i have numerous favorites, my mind still blanks out trying to recall what songs those are. And then i heard the scientist (coldplay) play, which means i cannot request for that anymore. Dishwalla popped into my head and so i decided to have counting blue cars as one of my three picks. Then i remembered name (googoo dolls), shortly followed by dare you to move (switchfoot). Contented with the songs i chose, i was ready.

After learning from the djs that i should rather call than just text, i heard them play dare you to move. Another song lost, huhu. Instantly i added the distance (evan and jaron) to complete my list. Now for the call.

I tried recalling their landline, and when i dialed the number in my head, i ended up with a fax tone! Good thing the djs started babbling about people calling all at once and so nobody's getting through their line. I started wondering, maybe it wasn't really destined for my to have my songs aired. Come to think of it, 2 songs i like got played already even if i haven't requested for them so i thought maybe i will get to hear my songs thru the request of others.

Then finally the djs recapped their number! immediately i dialled (because i thought if i dialled really fast, i might get through). And i heard a ring! but i didnt believe that i could get through that easy so i hung up... I heard the djs talking about having a caller on the line already but when they picked the fone up---dialtone. So that was me. Sorry...

I called right after that (feeling guilty), they answered, and i heard my voice on air.

djs: hello
me: hi
male dj: who's this?
me: erma
male dj: and where are you calling from?
me: rizal
female dj: so what are you doing right now? school... blah blah?
me: no im reviewing for my board exams blah blah..
female dj: nursing?
me: no, eng'g.
female dj:
.
.
blah blah bl..
.
.
mdj: ok edna *who the heck is edna?!?! i tried correcting him but he went on blabbing... whatever.*
djs: so what are your songs?
me: counting blue cars, name...
mdj:
fdj: yes, name as in pangalan! by googoo dolls! *thank you for understanding fdj!*
me: yes! that's it! and my last song will be the distance by evan and jaron.
fdj: yes! evan and jaron.
djs: blah, blah..
me: thanks!

After hanging up, mdj started doing an intro while explaining that he's not hearing right (well, actually yes), saying some more about edna, and finally fdj saying...
"erma. its erma."

Thanks again for giving light to mdj.

after two million years

2006-08-17T12:26:00.000+08:00

wooooow! totoo ba ito! magpopost ulit ako!!

hindi ako makapaniwala habang binabasa ko yung mga previous posts ko (a.k.a. archive na pala dahil sa kalumaan, may mga lumot nang kasama...) amazing. lampas 1 year na. ganun ako naging ka-busy... huwaw.

ano bang bago? marami. ang taba ko na, huhu. i wanted to do exercises para naman maburn ko ang mga kinakain ko, yun nga lang mejo nakakatamad. everytime pupunta ako sa school yun na lang ang lagi kong naririnig sa mga tao.. "erma ang taba mo!" yung mga mejo gentle, "ang healthy mo na". touched naman ako, at least sensitive enough so as not to hurt my feelings..

hindi naman din talaga ako sobrang nahuhurt. pero kasi gusto ko ding pumayat. nakita ko yung mga pictures ko sa friendster, mapayat pa ako nun. sana maibalik ko. pero kasi naiisip ko what more kapag may trabaho na ko, e di magkakapera na ko nang sarili ko. meaning, i can buy all the food that i want!!! pero sana hindi na ko tumaba pa.. ayoko na ng flabs.

the week ahead

2005-03-13T15:19:00.000+08:00

kailangan matapos ko na by today yung paper namin sa 135. sana hindi na magpumilit si mam na magkaroon pa kami ng isa pang experiment in place of thermal con... sana regalo niya na lang sa min yun. sana talaga. may interview pa kasi ako bukas. in fairness, first interview itong mahahandle ko! nakakaexcite.

ang plano ko bukas after interview ay lunch with boyps. tapos prepare na for pictorials. hanep! celebrity!!! nyahahaha. kaso la ako cream top... sana may extra sila...

sa tuesday dapat may pera na ko. in fairness, cooperative si mami... dapat ito na yung latest date na makapagpareserve ng venue, since may pera na by this time.

sa wednesday, lahat ng pagprepare for thursday ay gawin na. mga bibilhin at kung anu-ano pa. para kinabukasan less haggard.

sa thursday, induction na! sana maraming pumunta. pati alumni. para masaya.Ü

sa friday... hmmm... la ako maisip. ok lang.

pahabol: 12 kahapon!ÜÜÜ

after a million years

2005-03-12T08:42:00.000+08:00

caution: sa mga magbabasa, burado na kasi ang keyboard namin kaya maaring may hindi ako napansin pang mispelled words, hayaan na lang natin.

sa wakas!!!!!!!! ang dami nang naganap since last ako nag-update. sobrang dami. mantakin mo, mahigit isang buwan na ang nakalipas... at marami nang nakalipas na mga pangyayari: heart's day, 4th monthsary, KEM's 1st and 2nd election.... ang dami talaga! ang dami ko tuloy gusto ikwnto pero parang di ko alam kung pano magstart kaya bahala na.

pansin ko lang, yung last entry ko ay bout mandurukot. share ko lang, naslashan ako ng bag. asar talaga. pero sobrang natatawa ko dun sa slasher dahil nabigo ang kanyang hangarin. nyahaha for him. pano kasi may lining pa yung bag ko kaya ang naslash niya lang ay yung labas na cloth, di na tumagos sa loob. hahahahahahahaha. pero asar pa rin kasi sinira niya bag ko, gustong gusto ko pa naman yung bag ko na iyon.

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sabi ko kanina natapos na ang election ng KEM. pordat EC na kami! wel hindi pa... hindi pa tapos ang induction... nakakaexcite at the same time nakakakaba ang feeling na kami na ang next in line. nakakataba din ng puso sa mga taong bumoto at nagtiwala. there are a lot more things to learn para sa amin, at excited na kong matuto kami together. Ü

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wala pa rin akong ojt as of now. nagreply na ang intel saying that they are happy chenes chenes but blah blah..... in short, hindi ako tanggap. hmmmmm.... i really pray na makakuha ko ng ojt. aside from the fact na kailangan ko siya as requirement sa DOST, gusto ko din talaga, for the experience, lalo na diba kung may allowance silang ibibigay, e di mas masaya!

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astog nanay ko, lumapit sa pc at binasa itong mga pinagsususulat ko. nahiya naman daw ako diba? pordat enough of this na muna.

babala: mag-ingat sa mandurukot

2005-01-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

kanina after naming manood ng house of flying daggers ni boyps e nawindang kami kasi nawawala ang wallet niya. bumalik pa kami sa loob ng fc para hanapin, baka kasi nahulog sa ilalim from his pocket, although mejo weird kasi paano yun mahuhulog kung hindi naman niya tinatanggal dun diba? so yun, bumalik kami at pagdating namin sa loob ay may mga manong na na naglilinis. nung tinanong namin sila kung meron silang nakitang wallet, wala daw. hala.

after nun e di lumabas na lang ulit kami. tinry namin icheck yung bag niya, baka kasi di niya namalayang dun niya nailagay, hindi naman kasi siya naglalagay ng wallet sa bag. pagtingin namin, ayun, andun nga. e di nagtaka kami parehas kung pano napunta dun. ininspect niya yung wallet niya at napagalaman naming wala nang lamang pera.

well, at least pera lang ang nakuha. hindi buong wallet. marami pa din kasing ibang mahalagang bagay dun.

ang lupit. tinatry namin irecall ang mga pangyayari magmula pumasok kami sa loob ng fc. ang pwede lang na panahon ay yung naghahanap kami ng mauupuan. ang bilis naman nung kung sino man siyang salbaheng kumuha. grabe talaga.

kaya, isang prendly reminder lamang: mag-ingat tayo parati.

pasukan na naman

2005-01-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

balik eskwela.
panira talaga ng buhay ang acads.
anong ginagawa ko ngayon?
may paper pa dapat akong ginagawa. lab rep sa 135.
gagawin ko naman after ko idownload yung gawa na na parts.
ang sakit ng likod ko, weird.
ang weird, di naman ako nagbuhat ng anything.
baka sa pagod.
pansin ko lang puro na ako "ENTER".
ang saya! hehe.
tama na, ang ot na ng dating e.
gagawa na nga ako ng lab rep..
panira talaga ng buhay ang acads.

due to insistent public demand...(nyehehe)

2004-12-24T16:18:00.000+08:00

yahuuuu!!!! sa wakas nakapagpost akong muli.. dami kong gustong isulat pero hindi ko rin alam kung san ako magsisimula. sa dami ng nangyari since last post ko, kung ittry kong i-recall lahat para isulat dito, malamang abutin na tayo ng 2005! kaya isusulat ko na lang lung anumang masagi sa utak ko...

ISANG VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS sa ating lahat. gusto ko lang ishare, masaya talaga ako habang ineevaluate ang mga nagdaang araw, buwan, at sige na nga, yung buong taon na. alam kong walang isang segundo na hindi tumigil ang Diyos na buhusan ako ng mga blessings, although at times hindi ko agad napapansin dahil sa pagkamakulit na pinipilit i-assess ang mga bagay on my own. feeling magaling mag-assess, hehe. pero yun, sa lahat lahat ng mga iyon na binigay Niya, lubos ang aking pasasalamat: mga bagong lessons sa buhay, mga bagong taong nakilala, mga bagong experiences na napagdaanan, lahat alam kong para sa aking ikalalago.

at dahil mayamaya ay pasko na, ang sarap alalahanin na may isang napakagandang nangyari once upon a time sa isang manger, at iyon ay nung isilang si Jesus sa mundong ito---the greatest gift mankind ever received.

kaya sa lahat, huwag sana nating kalimutan ang tunay na meaning ng pasko: apart from all the gifts and festivities, the birth of Jesus Christ.

Maligayang Pasko sa ating lahat at Happy New Year na rin!!!!!!!! (in case hindi ako makapag-update that time which i think is most likely to happen.. hehe)

update!

2004-11-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

wala lang ito.

ang rason kung bakit hindi ako nakakapag-update lately ay ang kawalan ng oras na makahawak pa ng keyboard pagdating sa bahay... dami ginagawa e. hehe actually, ang post na ito ay dapat nakikita lang sa tagboard, primarily because wala namang concrete scope ang post na ito. wala lang, namis ko na rin kasing mag-update. kaya eto kahit lame. hehe.

nakaraan na nga ang november 12, at 13 na rin. hindi pala ko nakapagkwento dito. hehe. ayos lang. hehe. akin na lang yun!!! nyahaha.

oh well, that's all for now. tama na ang pagnanakaw ng sandali.

himala, maaga ata akong nakauwi ngayon.

2004-11-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

magmula nung wednesday last week, ngayon na lang ulit ako nakauwi ng bahay na naabutan ko ang mulawin. narealize ko bigla, namiss ko pala ang sofa namin. pag dumadating kasi ako sa bahay late na kaya sa kwarto na ang deretso, wala nang panahon manood ng tv.

ang tagal ko na din palang hindi nag-update. e pano nga naman ako makakapag-update kung wala ako sa bahay e no? may point ako dun. after kasu nung tagaytay trip namin e enrollment na kaya hindi ko na nakwento kung ano ang nangyari sa aming tagaytay escapade... pero balak ko pa ring ikwento dito, pag nakahanap ako ng maluwag-luwag na time.

excited na kong mag-friday. at magsabado...Ü. hehe, wala lang.

things to do

2004-10-30T11:20:00.000+08:00

1. mag-dc maya-maya para makapanood ng tv si nanay
2. kumain ng lunch
3. maggrocery
4. hingin kay fra yung other sp stuff
5. tapusin ang sp
6. choir practice
7. manood ng tv
8. magbasa ng edge of reason

ano pa ba? hmmm...
malapit na ang enrollment. sunday, monday, tuesday, tapos wednesday, enrollment na! pero bago yun, mon at tue muna. pupunta kami tagaytay--kaming youth ng church. come to think of it, namiss ko na na makasama sila. hindi na kasi ako nakaka-attend ng celgroup every friday. nakakasama ko na lang sila sa sunday skul tsaka choir practice. pero hindi pa siyempre lahat nun. excited ma ako. bonding moment ulit.

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amazing kung iisipin ko. hanggang ngayon e hindi nakakalimot ang mom at ate ni *exgig&* sa pangangamusta. at ngayon pa, nag-iinvite na magbakasyon sa province nila! nakaka-touch kasi hindi sila nagbago. kaso hindi na rin ata proper na sumama-sama sa lakad ng family nila kami. wala ng link. sige, friends kami. pero diba? parang improper na. lalo ngayon.

sana maging close din ulit yung pamilya namin at pamilya ni boyps. sabagay, wala pang means of interaction ngayon. ang cool kasi pag close sila. parang dati. sobrang ok pag ganun! dibale, pagdarasal kong maging ganun.

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ayan, nagrereklamo na si nanay, buksan ko na daw yung tv.

answered prayers

2004-10-29T10:30:00.000+08:00

nung nagtext ka sa kin kanina naisip ko, ano nga kaya yun? yung unang-una kong naisip, yun yung pinakamasaya. pero may iba pa kong naisip na posible rin naman. pero nung nagtext ka ulit to tell me exactly kung anong topic nga ang ikkwento mo.... ang saya. tama yung unang hinala ko.

hindi ko alam kung alam mo pero i have been praying for you dati pa. paiba-iba nga lang ang laman ng dasal ko. i even prayed to God na kung walang kahihinatnan ang lahat ng ito, wag ka na magparamdam at all. dati yun, nung mga getting to know you stage pa lang. at matalino talaga si God. He won't always answer you with a 'yes'. kasi alam Niya kung ano ang mas makakabuti. at mabuti na lang nabara ko, nagparamdam ka pa din kasi.

alam mo yung mga issues na dati na nating nadiscuss na maaaring maggive rise to conflicts. and i've been praying for those na mastraighten out. ang tawag ko pa nga dun ay yung mga 'pinakamahahalagang bagay'. especially about faith.

alam ko dati pa na pinakikinggan Niya ang mga dasal ko. it's just so wonderful na makita ang bunga ng mga iyon. lalo pa in you. nakakaiyak sa tuwa sa totoo lang.

siyempre patuloy kitang ipagdarasal. hindi mo na kailangan pang hilingin iyon. ikaw pa!

nuNIEnu...

2004-10-27T13:53:00.000+08:00

pinost ko ito sa isang thread sa peyups.. at babala sa mga tao, mushy ito. pero kebs, hindi naman ito para sa kanila..

ang funny. hindi ko na alam kung kailan ako huling sumulat dito. magmula ata ng dumating ka sa buhay ko? di ko na maalala..

nasa inyo ka ngayon. at mahigit isang linggo tayong hindi magkikita. andito ka nung monday, after one week of not being with you. hindi mo na kailangan pang itanong kung namiss kita. siguro tongertz ka na lang kung hindi mo alam iyon. sa totoo lang, sobrang namiss kita. ewan ko, ganun talaga.

ang pathetic ko kahapon. or ewan, napapathetican kasi ako sa sarili ko. parang hindi ako. pero naisip ko, i had been this way before na pala. nagiging cheesy ata talaga ang tao kapag nasa panahon. matagal din bago ako naging ganito ulit. hehe, ikaw kasi.

sori kahapon, naiyak kasi ako. ewan ko ba. siguro the reason why i was missing you more yesterday was because i knew that you're just a phone call away, but still hindi tayo magkausap. nasa mga tita mo kasi ikaw kaya nakakahiya magbabad sa telepono. naintindihan ko yun. pero siyempre, hindi pa rin maalis ang malungkot ako. mahigit isang linggo na naman kasi kitang hindi makakasama.. at gustuhin ko mang sulitin ang time na kahit sa fone ay makausap ka, hindi pwede.

sabi mo nakakalungkot pero kailangang magtiis. alam ko yun. actually, ang nakakatawa pa, ako ang nagsasabi niyan dati. hindi ko lang siguro kinaya na ipsych ang sarili ko kahapon kaya nilamon na ko ng kalungkutan.

6 na araw na lang magkikita na ulit tayo. sabi ko nga dapat positive ang outlook, para hindi malungkot masyado. at nag-agree tayo dun. oo, kailangan mag-tiis. kailangan magtiyaga. after all, love is patient. at mahal kita.

yun lang.