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tOts to ponder..

"As much as I would want to share every complicated thought that runs through my head, I believe speech does not permit me to do so. Writing it down perhaps may help me come up with a good approximation."

Elementary Days Wednesday, August 30, 2006 |

They say that the older you get, the more memories you keep. That's how I know I AM getting old..


The death of one of our batchmate's mom got me to thinking about the people whom i shared my "youthful" days with. And I felt sad when I realized that most of them stayed together until the end of highschool, but not me. Not that I'm regretting my highschool life-definitely not. It's just sad to know that if ever we get some time to be together again, as in the whole batch, I know I won't be much in part of the majority's reminiscing because I only got to be with them during elementary days.


But I still wish we could find time to see each other again. I'm glad that somehow our egroup managed to stay, well, alive (?) even if there's not much activity going on in there.. I hope there would be.

Cancer Sunday, August 27, 2006 |

Because of staying at home, I am able to watch news on TV daily. It's depressing to know that our country seems to be going nowhere. With all the politics in our government, it's not surprising at all that up to now, we still have a loooot of problems unsolved. Imagine, only a mere 40% of the country's population have toilets (stats from Jessica Soho)!
Just the other day, my sister asked me if I still believe that our country can recover from all its problems, if there's still hope. I heard myself saying yes, although it felt to me like a wish instead of a stand.
For me, what our country needs is a serious moral overhaul. From stories I've heard, it's really hard for "straight" people to stay that way once they are submerged in a bent system. And those who managed to keep their principles in tact chooses to flee before they get eaten up.
Sad.
And even sadder because even though I want change to happen, I am powerless.

Playlist of the Day Tuesday, August 22, 2006 |

I was reading through Perry's when i heard from Jam djs that they're having this average joe's playlist segment where any listener can name three songs which they will be playing. I thought maybe i could participate in this program of their's and so i started keying in my phone the songs i wanted to be aired. But i realized that because i have not been listening to the radio lately, i have forgotten the number to which you can send your text messages to. So i waited for the djs to recap their station's contact details. And, just like an answer to my dilemma, they announced that they would be prioritizing entries from calls instead of those from text messages. Ok.

It wasn't easy naming my three songs because, although i have numerous favorites, my mind still blanks out trying to recall what songs those are. And then i heard the scientist (coldplay) play, which means i cannot request for that anymore. Dishwalla popped into my head and so i decided to have counting blue cars as one of my three picks. Then i remembered name (googoo dolls), shortly followed by dare you to move (switchfoot). Contented with the songs i chose, i was ready.

After learning from the djs that i should rather call than just text, i heard them play dare you to move. Another song lost, huhu. Instantly i added the distance (evan and jaron) to complete my list. Now for the call.

I tried recalling their landline, and when i dialed the number in my head, i ended up with a fax tone! Good thing the djs started babbling about people calling all at once and so nobody's getting through their line. I started wondering, maybe it wasn't really destined for my to have my songs aired. Come to think of it, 2 songs i like got played already even if i haven't requested for them so i thought maybe i will get to hear my songs thru the request of others.

Then finally the djs recapped their number! immediately i dialled (because i thought if i dialled really fast, i might get through). And i heard a ring! but i didnt believe that i could get through that easy so i hung up... I heard the djs talking about having a caller on the line already but when they picked the fone up---dialtone. So that was me. Sorry...

I called right after that (feeling guilty), they answered, and i heard my voice on air.

djs: hello
me: hi
male dj: who's this?
me: erma
male dj: and where are you calling from?
me: rizal
female dj: so what are you doing right now? school... blah blah?
me: no im reviewing for my board exams blah blah..
female dj: nursing?
me: no, eng'g.
female dj:
.
.
blah blah bl..
.
.
mdj: ok edna *who the heck is edna?!?! i tried correcting him but he went on blabbing... whatever.*
djs: so what are your songs?
me: counting blue cars, name...
mdj:
fdj: yes, name as in pangalan! by googoo dolls! *thank you for understanding fdj!*
me: yes! that's it! and my last song will be the distance by evan and jaron.
fdj: yes! evan and jaron.
djs: blah, blah..
me: thanks!

After hanging up, mdj started doing an intro while explaining that he's not hearing right (well, actually yes), saying some more about edna, and finally fdj saying...
"erma. its erma."

Thanks again for giving light to mdj.

after two million years Thursday, August 17, 2006 |

wooooow! totoo ba ito! magpopost ulit ako!!

hindi ako makapaniwala habang binabasa ko yung mga previous posts ko (a.k.a. archive na pala dahil sa kalumaan, may mga lumot nang kasama...) amazing. lampas 1 year na. ganun ako naging ka-busy... huwaw.

ano bang bago? marami. ang taba ko na, huhu. i wanted to do exercises para naman maburn ko ang mga kinakain ko, yun nga lang mejo nakakatamad. everytime pupunta ako sa school yun na lang ang lagi kong naririnig sa mga tao.. "erma ang taba mo!" yung mga mejo gentle, "ang healthy mo na". touched naman ako, at least sensitive enough so as not to hurt my feelings..

hindi naman din talaga ako sobrang nahuhurt. pero kasi gusto ko ding pumayat. nakita ko yung mga pictures ko sa friendster, mapayat pa ako nun. sana maibalik ko. pero kasi naiisip ko what more kapag may trabaho na ko, e di magkakapera na ko nang sarili ko. meaning, i can buy all the food that i want!!! pero sana hindi na ko tumaba pa.. ayoko na ng flabs.