Unsure
I find myself thinking a lot lately, and it scares me.
For the past n years that I have known how to think, it never occurred to me to question the things that, I believe, make me happy. And contented. I don't really know when this nagging question entered my mind, and since then I just can't shake it off..
For the past n years that I have known how to think, it never occurred to me to question the things that, I believe, make me happy. And contented. I don't really know when this nagging question entered my mind, and since then I just can't shake it off..
What do I REALLY want to do in my life to make me happy?
Not that I'm sad or mad or anything. Actually I find it confusing myself. Argh. What's worse is that I don't know how to share my dilemma to anyone, because I don't really know what it is that I am making a fuss about.
Argh. This is hard.
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Andami kong gusto.
Gusto ko magpunta sa beach para mag-isip ng tungkol sa maraming bagay.
Gusto ko i-try magpunta sa ibang bansa, mag-aral or magtrabaho for a while, just to feel how it is to be alone in a foreign place.
Gusto kong magpaka-loner ng matagal para masort ko kung ano ba talaga gusto kong gawin.
Gusto kong malaman what really matters to me.
Gusto kong may makausap about these without exerting much effort sa pagkkwento kasi alam na niya kung anong nasa isip ko, kasi ako mismo hindi ko alam kung pano ko ito ikkwento.
Gusto kong gumawa ng mga bagay na hindi kailangan isipin kung makaka-offend ba ako ng mga tao sa paligid ko.
Nakakapagod. Ito ba ang mid-life crisis? Is this why they say they "need time to find their selves"? Hindi ko alam.
Argh. This is hard.
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Andami kong gusto.
Gusto ko magpunta sa beach para mag-isip ng tungkol sa maraming bagay.
Gusto ko i-try magpunta sa ibang bansa, mag-aral or magtrabaho for a while, just to feel how it is to be alone in a foreign place.
Gusto kong magpaka-loner ng matagal para masort ko kung ano ba talaga gusto kong gawin.
Gusto kong malaman what really matters to me.
Gusto kong may makausap about these without exerting much effort sa pagkkwento kasi alam na niya kung anong nasa isip ko, kasi ako mismo hindi ko alam kung pano ko ito ikkwento.
Gusto kong gumawa ng mga bagay na hindi kailangan isipin kung makaka-offend ba ako ng mga tao sa paligid ko.
Nakakapagod. Ito ba ang mid-life crisis? Is this why they say they "need time to find their selves"? Hindi ko alam.
Labels: OT mode
1:39 AM
sabi ng ate ko hindi raw midlife, quarter life crisis raw. onga naman. kung midlife crisis e di hanggang 46 years old ka lang hehehe!
anyway, minsan pag nagiisip rin ako, winiwish ko na makausap yung sarili ko. ang hirap talaga magisip. lalo na't alam mo na in the end ikaw rin naman and noneelse ang kailangan sumagot.
people always sa na ikaw lang may alam ng sagot. but in fact, you don't really know!
pero it really helps na kumausap ng someone. well at least for me it worked. parang nagkakafinality kasi yung mga statements mo when you say it to someone else e.
at makakatulong rin na magisip ang magpaka-OT at magisip ng magisa.
nagiging blog post na tong comment ko hehe. good luck to you. text text lang if you need someone to talk to. top
11:28 AM
haha in fairness onga blogpost na comment mo! hahaha.
nung isang araw naisip ko magkwento, kaso ako man nalito kung ano uunahin ko. tapos nalito na ko kasi parang senseless na. may pagka-lost talaga ko nowadays, haaay. ohwell, SALAMAT! top
11:35 AM
mukha ngang lost. see you soon! top
4:22 AM
super nagegets kita girl. i know the feeling...
maganda nga if you can find time to get away alone, even for just one day. 'yung tipong nasa malayo ka lang. mag-isa. muni-muni. though i can't guarantee that you'll get the clarity that you wanted, you'll be on your way, at least.
the revelation will come, sometimes suddenly, sometimes slowly. but you have to give yourself a break from everything else first to give your mind some freedom to sort it all out.
these are just suggestions, girl. i don't have the answers pero dito lang kami.
good luck! :-)
-joanne top
6:22 PM
hi jo!
thanks.. onga, i had my time away from my normal day, yun nga lang sa ospital, naospital kasi ako, nagkasakit kasi ako. haha. hindi rin naman ako nakapag-isip.
salamat super sa niyo. if maging maayos ang utak enough for me to share my thoughts bubulabugin ko lang kayo.
:D top